I had a problem with cocaine a few years ago, and it took a lot of effort and family support to get me sober. However I know if i relapse I'm not only going to lose their support but I will be disowened. I caused them way too many problems with my addiction and they know if i relapse the problems will only get bigger since I also have a daughter now. But my old cravings have been coming back, and its getting so hard to stay sober. I keep thinking what if i just do it once and that will satisfy my craving and i'll be fine. But I'm scared that I'll keep wanting more, and that i'll turn back into the Estella I used to be, not the good sober Estella I am now.

Theres a big problem with that now huh? My sister is a senior in high school, and she was telling me at her winter formal 45 students got caught drunk. I had my share with this when I was in high school but luckily I never got caught, even though i threw up in the hallway. But drinking at school should really stop.

Okie this is completely opposite of my real addiction but I've been having a pretty big problem with cheesecake lately. To be exact its a white chocolate cheesecake from cheesecake factory. Ooooh talking about it is making me crave one now. For the past 3 weeks i've been basically substituting my meals with a slice or two of this cheesecake. and I eat it as snacks too. over all i think I eat about 5 or 6 slices a day and more if i stay home all day i eat even more. These cheesecakes are expensive too lol.

Is Etilic alcohol the same as rubbing alcohol? Cuz I know that rubbing alcohol makes you go blind, so cyclone you could be right about that.

I guess I could be referred to as a dry druggie? I was addicted to cocaine and I didn't go through any recovery programs, i just had my family support me through it and I basically locked my self at home with my parents supervision or friends supervision so that I dont try to do any cocaine. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do and go through but i made it.

telling other people was very hard for me. But i didn't tell them they all found out and basically intervented. Admitting it was so hard tho, but in the end my family and friends helped me dramatically I dont know where I'd be without them, I thank God for them everyday.

I think that is going to be really hard for you.. How are you coping? I wouldn't be able to do it. But i guess you have more stopping you when your taking medicine too.

I was 21 when I first tried cocaine. I was first experimenting and playing around with marijuana, but one time we were over the dealers house and he had no weed but offered us cocaine. Me and my boyfriend had just broken up and I just wanted to get totally messed up, I was planning on smoking and drinking till I just forget all my pain. So we bought the cocaine and I did some. I loved the feeling, more than weed or drinking or anything. the nex morning there was some more left over so I did some more too. after a while I kept on doing it and I'd want more and more. I dropped out of college because I used the check my parents gave me to pay for my classes on cocaine. I spent every cent of my paycheck on it. I stopped paying my car payments and got my car repossesed. my life was falling apart. My friends started hating being around me.
My friends and family all intervented, they got me into the living room and started talking to me about it and after hours of denying, and crying i realised i did have a problem and I needed help. I locked my self at home for like 3 weeks. there was always someone present to make sure I dont do any drugs and I dont try to get some. it was the most painful thing and hardest think I ever had to go through.

I've heard about those. Thats pretty crazy the governemnt should put more of an effort to stop this.

think about everything you buy twice. after you take it home look through your closet, if u have something similar to it then return it. Or if you dont really see the need for it then return it. you could find something much better and maybe worth overdrafting =P

Sorry I havent been on here in a while.. I've stayed sober since then.. 10-07-04... But I have almost relapsed a few times..those cravings are so hard to get rid of.