I don't really ever read my bible. I was given one many years ago, but honestly it just collects dust in my room. I had never read this passage before and lately I have been really searching for that something that is missing in my life. Do you believe it is God? I have just been let down so many times before by people who say they are Christians and live another life. If you are professing the name of Jesus why are you drinking alcohol and cussing? I know I shouldn't let that control my relationship with God, but it does. Has anyone else gone through something like this? I think this happens way more than we think.

in situations like these you need to look at the positive. at least you are coming clean about what you are doing. thats a major step and i think it must be done to come clean. and you are extremely lucky to be married to a woman like your wife. she knows she made a commitment to you and its for better or for worse. support from a family is very important i have found, so youre lucky. i also encourage you to read the user (sober)s blogs on this site. i came across his profile by mistake and started reading them a couple weeks ago and it has really made me see things differently yet know at least someone has felt the same way i do. there is something to hold on to though and that is hope. people battle addiction everyday and everyone does to a certain extent. people conquer addiction and I believe with time and willingness you can too. please keep us updated.

i have another story about this same thing. a woman who was working at a tile company stole around $235,000 to help with her gambling addiction. from 2001-05 she was in charge of bookkeeping and the accounts manager. she stole so much money the company had the file for bankruptcy and the 74 year old owner is completely broke, with no company. how messed up is that? small businesses like that cant afford to lose that much even if they are doing big jobs with a lot of money coming in.