Isn’t it amazing how much He loves each and every one of us? He died on the cross for our sins so we can have salvation. What have we done for Him? I always ask myself this question. He doesn’t ask much from us, but to be obedient to Him and love and trust Him with everything you have. It is so easy to slip into sin and as we all know sin has a way of creeping up on us and getting worse and worse with each passing day. You feel convicted by the Holy Spirit and you need to let it work in your heart.
I’m sure you really wouldn’t rather be on drugs. An addiction is an addiction and they are all hard to overcome. Just read your Bible daily and try to follow God’s word. I know its way easier said than done, but anything is possible through Christ.
I hope this helps, I’m not trying to lecture you so sorry if it comes across that way, I’m just trying to be supportive to a fellow believer.
God Bless!