Hey there, well I hope you're still hanging on blondie, i haven't been on in a while and I found this interesting!
Honestly, I think a lot of girls feel similar to how you're describing, maybe not as extreme, but on some levels yes.... I think you should try to really figure out what's getting to you, telling you you're not hot enough or blonde enough. I think in every bad quality about a person, there is one good thing. Try to concentrate on the good things in life, if going to the gym for hours still doesn't satisfy your hunger, find something that will contain it. I personally hate exercising in gyms, I'd way rather go for a long jog and truly enjoy a nice day. Maybe you should try doing nice things for other people, that's always a great cure for self-centeredness. You just have to try finding what makes you truly happy inside and makes you feel even better about the way you look. Wishing you all the best, deeeevah!

How come all I hear about in the news is tons of people being addicted to drugs and celebrities getting dui's. It's like the new trend to be in and out of rehab. I used to always be into like celebrity news and all the gossip but lately I've just had no interest in it because it seems like its just all ronchy stuff. Like all these young starlettes are getting too much into partying and it's affecting their careers. It makes me wonder because pretty soon I'll be having kids, I mean not anytime soon but eventually and wouldn't want my teenage daughter to use these girls that act trashy as their role models. I think substance abuse is exploited too much because even at my high school there are soo many kdis that do bad stuff. Drinking in high school is becoming more and more popular and a ton kids are getting in trouble. I duno, sometimes it just gets to me because I don't have a problem when people do bad stuff but, its like you don't have to let the whole world know about it. People should be more discrete about it because drinking and doing drugs is becoming sugar coated and it needs to be precieved for what it truly is!

Get a life attagirl as long as I'm his motivation its all he needs.

I finally stopped tanning after this last month because for my last day I figured I'd go for extra long so I told the girl twenty minutes, and after about sixteen minutes, my legs were stinging so bad so I flipped over, and when the bed turned off I came out and I looked white! But not because some freak tan lol, my skin had dried out so incredibly much in those 20 minutes than I was almost flakey all over, it was so gross I had to put on tons of lotion and for the next few days I was so itchy! That just turned me off from tanning for a long time because I heard you can actually die from tanning because it dehydrates your body so much...SCAry!

I think they are both just as dangerous because obsession is almost borderline with addiction and it can turn into it so easily. Addiction is deadly and I think if someone is obsessed with something, they need to get help before it gets out of their hands. It's like when people say flirting is cheating's ugly cousin, it's practically the same thing!