RE: I just cant!!!
5/15/2008 10:14:17 AM
V4victory
27 Posts
soxfan said: I'm actually loaded with will. Despite growing up in extremely challenging circumstance with a raging alcoholic dad and then drinking and using myself to escape, I graduated cum laude from a tough academic high school, where I also played sports year round, edited the school newspaper, studied three instruments, served on social service and yearbook committees, worked 35 hours a week at a waitressing job - and had a serious boyfriend. I went to an Ivy League school on a scholarship - and continued to party, but still graduated with a high B average, played sports and worked on the newspaper and various committees. Despite the fact that I continued to drink and smoke, I managed to go to a top grad school and get my master's degree, and built a solid career. Also in there I quit smoking; developed a dependence on prescription drugs after a serious back injury playing sports; kicked that, and kept pushing, till I just flat-out crashed out - a couple of times. I went to rehab a bunch of times, worked my ass off at my recovery - no one ever said I didn't work hard enough or have enough will - and built my career back up again. I've had numerous sobriety stints over the past 20 years, the longest being 7 years, but I still hang in there, and still have a job - though I'd like much more. But whatever, I'll never give up.
Are you an addict, Cowboy? Have you been there, and back? And back there, and back again?
If you didn't have those years of sobriety, your life right now would probably be much different though right? You got really lucky that drugs didn't play with your mind. You stayed extremely inteleginent and kept all your priorities first. But my sister didn't have all that. School was never her thing and drugs totally took over. She lost her job when she went to work under the influence. She got caught with possesion by the cops and had to spend some time in jail. It took all that to push her to quit, and she started wanting to. She knew she needed to quit from before but never had the will. Once she did she went straight for it.
RE: deprivation of sunlight causes depression
5/15/2008 11:04:47 AM
V4victory
27 Posts
xx_babygal_xx said: It's really important to stay out of the sun when you're young. A lot of my friends are obsessed with tanning salons and I know they're going to regret it when they're older. Moderation is important :)
I've tried tanning salons but I just get an ugly tan, and it goes away after a few weeks. When I tan in the sun it stays for a long time and its a nice golden color. I get scared too when i'm in a tanning book, after final destination! I pray the whole time while I'm in there.
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also did you know that tanning in the sun gives you endorphins.
RE: my girlfriend
5/15/2008 11:18:42 AM
V4victory
27 Posts
xx_babygal_xx said: I had a dream that I was a serial killer and I killed my family, so maybe they're going to live longer?? I chased my sister off a cliff LOL it was sort of scary now that I think of it!
lol I dont think that means your going to live longer.. I looked it up for you,
"To dream that you have committed a murder, indicates that you are putting an end to an old habit and your former ways of thinking. This could also mean an end to an addiction. Alternatively, you may have some repressed aggression or rage at yourself or at others."