RE: Re: How fast are you recovering
10/31/2008 1:45:27 PM
Tracyy
17 Posts
godhelpme said: My addiction started at age 10 after I was molested. It never seemed a problem.I compulsively masturbate. I got worse when my ex and I split. He had severe sex and porn addiction. That was March of this year. In June I got baptised and commited myself to God. That started my wish to stop. I have done really good, a lot better that b4 I was baptised. But I still have relapses when I am depressed and around my period. Sometimes they are so severe that I hurt down there. I give in at those times, it happened today, which is my inspiration to get help. I want to stop because I don't want to hurt God. Someday I will have to answer to him for my sins, including my masturbating problem, and I can't change what I did in the past but I can change the future. I want to stop so bad. I am trying to stop and keep it a secret. My mom does not know I have a problem, and I don't want her to. I saw how she screamed at Ryan everytime we found porn and how mad she got. I don't want that to happen to me and I work so hard to make her proud, and God proud. I don't want to disappoint her. I would like to go to a therapist but I am too ashamed, and I don't have the money. Part of my addiction is OCD. Which I know I have. OCD peopl have impulses they cannot control too. I want to stop really bad and I would love to find someone to talk to that has a similar problem or who will not judge me. We can help eachother and give support when and if we relapse. I feel better after I admit it and admitting leads to change. Please help me.
you shouldn't feel ashamed of this. It's an addiction and very hard to control. And your doing the completely right thing asking for help from God, and obviously help from others by joining this site and tha's spectacular. you've already accomplished a lot by admitting you have a problem and by wanting to fix it. I think you should take it step by step. Any time you get the urge to masturbate or anthing like that do something else to get your mind off of it. go for a jog call a friend. anything. It would be very good if you could get someone you trust to help you in person, but ti is understanding to want to keep that away from them. but you would be surprised how much a good friend could help. I would stay away from getting sexual in any relationship right now also. Take it step by step and ask God for help and you'll be able to get through this. If your still in high school, talk to a school therapist about what happened to you when you were ten. They could help also and you wouldn't have to pay for that either.. Keep us posted, nd good luck :)