eliza23 said: How do I begin this...How do I recognise my own enabling? How do I stop myself from wanting to scream when I see his eyes red and blurry? I see his tools of addiction and I want to throw them or dig a hole so I can forget them? But I don't...Does that make me a coward?
Recently we took a trip to a state where marijuana is legal...guess what I allowed? I told myself if he buys a bigger quantity I don't have to thing about him trying to get it... I am tired and stressed...I love him but I worry. If he doesn't smoke he drinks heavily...I mean to where he has no idea of what is going on or what he did! He has yet to destroy everything we have worked together for...but I feel the ax will fall...oh wait...I know it will!
I am clinging to Jesus and trying to find some comfort there and holding on to the knowledge that God never gives you more than you can handle. I keep looking up for a miracle...
I suggest you find time to talk to him. Find a time where he is not drunk or not under marijuana. Talk to him about stopping those vices. Try convincing him to attend a
therapeutic treatment program. Try to convince him well. It's your only hope before everything you've worked for is lost.