How on earth, do I get over this huge sum of money that I have gambled away. Hundreds of thousands of dollars that would have helped to put me up in retirement. I still have a lot and so I justified the waste by saying "internally" while gambling, ohhhh, this doesn't matter, I'll work, there will be more, I'll marry, well now I could use the money and I wonder if I am now making decisions based upon trying to get the money back. From a wealthy man. Just can't seem to forget what a huge sum has passed through my hands on to the casinos. It is a little devil on my shoulders that won't go away. I have started to slow down and decline on the weekly visits to the casino and starting to try to get my life back with positive behavior substitutes.

God bless you all who go through this awful thing.