At 45 years old I'm a very healthy and from first impression, you would probably say wow! what a dynamic person. I've relapsed with meth and I need someone who understands and who I can talk too. Anyone in OC???

Hey so first off i'm sorry about your relapse.. Addiction is a disease that needs to be dealt with on a daily basis, recovery is supposed to be for life.  I think now you need to definitely regain your focus and get serious about your sobriety.  Welcome to the forums.! :)

If you want to talk on the forums im not in OC but I most definitely am here to help :).
Meth is a really hard addiction to kick and relapsing makes it very tough. But you obviously want to quit and you know its better for you so thats the first step. You cant do something that you dont want to do, but since you want to I totally believe you could do it and quit for good. You could look for narcotics annonymous groups to help! I know those really do help.
If you dont mind me asking how did you quit last time?