My friend was telling  me a story about a 19 year old boy named Abraham Biggs. He blogged about kiling himself and not much did anything about it some even edged him on online, while others tried talking about it. A few hours later he decided to go through with it and overdosed on a cocktail of prescription drugs. However that’s not the juicy part, he live streamed his scuicide online. Someone saw this on bodybuilding.com and reported it. The site moderators pinpointed where it was coming from but by the time they called the police it was too late and he was dead. I found this so shocking and sad! What could make a person want to lose their life. I understand agrivation, depression, anger, but all that can go away. He can never get his life back.

The fact that people encouraged him is disturbing to me.  But in a world that is filled with backwards people, you can expect to get all of the wrong answers.  He should've known not to look for strangers for his answers.  It's terrible to base your decisions and emotions on what other people think.  We need to look deep within and appreciated life for all it's worth. Even the bad, we need to appreciate everything.  If he would've looked to God for answers, I know he would've felt better. 

this was the suicide letter that he left online. I think its very selfish of anyone to kill themselves, sure they may be taking them selves out of "misery" that could have otherwise been dealt with in much healthier ways, but they're putting their families and friends in much more misery than they were going through. I know if one of my siblings killed themselves, or one of my best friends even if they kept saying it wasn't my fault I would think it was. I would feel completely traumatized.

"Ask a guy who is gonna OD (again) tonight anything
To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying""

I feel the same way, I believe it's so selfish to kill yourself.  But I still feel bad for this person. He was in so much pain before he died and I just can't imagine hating yourself that much to the point where you actually go through with suicide.  And especially for the girl that he's in love with. I'm sure she feels like it's her fault.  But someone like this guy is unhealthy, and you just can't base your own self worth on how others think of you..

What if he didn't want to die though. I mean usually people who commit suicide don't tell anyone and they leave a  note for later. But when they tell someone about it they usually want someone to try and stop them. After that people would take their feelings more seriously. This guy told people online, I'm sure a lot of people were reading his blog, I would expect one of them to try to stop me. But all those feelings of despair and sadness and all that couldve went a way. Everyone goes through ups and downs but the downs go back up why end your life when it will get better with patience?

There were people actually enticing him to do it.  He took an overdose of pills and they were discussing whether he took enough to die.  It's horrible, this the video is over 12 hours long, and the boy died in his father's bed with people watching.  I think there are more people out there than we realize who like to see others suffer.  The poeple watching the boy are just extremists.  We see it all of the time on tv.. people getting hurt.. especially on reality tv shows.  I personally don't watch much tv because it's all trash.  Most reality tv shows are just about parading innocent people, often humilitating them.  It's not fair.. people nowadays are becoming desensitized and we're not even realizing it.  There was a program in Britain where a man received assisted suicide, he was only 59 years old.  He had a neurological degenerative disease and decided to end his life with his wife by his side.  He pulled out his ventilator with his teeth, with countless people tuned in.  What's the point of all this...???? 

Have any of you guys seen that movie Untraceable? Incase you haven't its basically about these FBI agents trying to catch this guy who keeps murdering people and putting them on the internet. The only catch is the more people that log on to watch it happen the faster the murder happens. Like one murder he did was put a guy on the floor and surrounded him with UV lights like the ones they use in tanning booths. The more people who logged on to watch this the more lights turned on and the guy's skin was boiling off his body he was burning to death. Yet when they showed what some people were saying, some were laughing saying "ROFL" or edging the guy on. Its sad really. Anyway seeing how some people were taking these webcam suicides so lightly reminded me of that.