Last night I started a big fight with my boyfriend.  It was really frustrating because I feel self conscience sometimes about his past drug use.  He hid his cocaine addiction from me for months.  Even after I found out, he still did it.  Now, over a year later I'm still worrying about him doing drugs.  Last night I asked him what he was texting his friend, and this happened in front of his parents.  He snapped back at me that I have no right reading his text messages and to stay out of his business.  Afterwards, I sent him a horrible text message cussing and accusing him of hiding something.. I thought, why else would he snap at me like that!?  I feel bad for cussing at him, I never act like that.  But I'm wondering if my paranoia of him using drugs again will ever go away? 

I have the same problem with my girlfriend. She cheated on me and then admitted it. And after admitting it and working everything out she did it again. Sometimes I think that she is still cheating on me. Like she did it all those times even seeing how much she hurt me whats going to stop her now? Every time she doesn't answer my call or text I automatically think shes cheating on me. And sometimes I'll just randomly call her yelling at her accusing her of cheating on me. I dont know if that will ever go away. She swears on everything all the time that shes faithful now but she swore before too. I think it just takes time to develop a trust again. Even if it takes years. But you also need things to prove to you that they're not cheating. I check her phone all the time and if anything suspicious comes up them I know not to trust her. I think its going to take somethings to prove to you also whether hes doing drugs or not. Maybe a random drug test every once in a while to prove to you. It would cause fights for sure but you'll get your answer.