im having a very hard problem getting over the people i' lost. im 30 at the age of 15 my mom killed herselve i was left w raising my 10 year old borther. when my borther  was only 19 he was killed by a drunk driver. my husband was killed in a car acident in 2004 i was 4mths pregant with are 3 child. then i meet someone who was very dear to me he also died. my father was always my rock my best freind. he found out he had lung cancer and a year later died. i have so much anger inside i cant seem to deal with the pain and it is effecting my life  my kids life and everyone that loves me i have pushed away everyone being afraid of losing someone else im going down the wrong road in life makin bad decisions i just want this pain to go away.  find a way to deal with it...  im sinking in a deep dark state of mind im very afraid of my further my kids further... HELP what do i do  im so so tried of hurting and being afraida

In the midst of your grieving, be patient with yourself and others. Do something kind for yourself each day. 
Grief is a whole-person response to loss. It involves our emotions, our thoughts, our bodies, our spirits, our whole selves. How do people grieve? In every way imaginable!

     Some cry, others wail.
     Some ask questions, some want answers.
     Some scream or yell, others are quieter.
     Some want to be alone, others want friends and family close by.
     Some just want to keep busy, others find it hard to do much of anything.
     Some talk, others keep their thoughts and feelings inside.

Small children may not be able to remember the loved one who has died.  Photographs or videos of the person who died, especially ones in which the child is also present, may help the child remember, as well as help the child to express feelings and concerns that need to be acknowledged.  Helping your children can help you cope also.  Some people describe the transition following a death as moving to a "new normal." In other words, while it can be important to return to familiar patterns and routines, even to believe that life can be good again for us, it is important to realize that our lives change when someone significant to us dies.  Unexpected deaths are the hardest to deal with.  You could be experience loss overload, which is when you have many losses in a short period of time.  Remember that each individual loss has to be grieved.  Try to deal with the losses in a way that you can handle, not everything at once.  It may be time for professional support and care to help you through a truly difficult period.

First off let me start by saying how sorry I am for all your losses, I cant imagine how hard that must be.

But I really dont think you should isolate your self from people and be afriad to get close to anyone. God may have taken so many of your dear ones away from you but have you ever heard that saying, "its better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all"? I think this fits you. You have amazing parents who loved you when some people were never fortunate to have parents at all, or parents who abused them in so many ways. You had a husband when some people never fell in love at all. Or great friends when some never even had one true friend in their lives. Be thankful for what you did have. You also have 3 kids! Your kids will be by your side forever, and your very fortunate to have them. Think of all the things you do have and have had. Dont be afraid to move on and meet people. Not everyone will be taken away from you, and you will never get better if you isolate your self and stay afraid. Also if you believe in God I think that could help a lot. God doesn't do this to hurt you, and everything he does take away from you he could compensate for better and I trully believe thats what he will do for you.

I also think you should speak to a professional about this and they could help you get over this and live a happy life once again, for you and your kids. You can get past this and still enjoy your life and I really dont think you should stop yourself from still enjoying your life and the number one thing you should never ever ever do is give up. Goodluck and please let us know how your doing..

-teetiger

I can't imagine what you are going through! I have also lost very close people to me, but not all at once like that. I'm so sorry that you are in so much pain. I agree that you should seek counseling and just give it a try and see if it helps anything or any area in your life. I have gone to counseling many times in life and for the most part it does help. Time is also a big factor and I know how hard it is to get over someone's death, but maybe focus on what you do have like your children and spending quality time with them because you know how precious life is. Hope this was helpful, good luck with everything!